TORMENT

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I think i'm losing my mind!!!

ALL-TIME TOP CONTENDER: MUHAMMAD BIN HAMDAN

It's a bird!!!

No, it's a plane!!!

NO!! It's Muhammad Bin Hamdan coming in from the sky!!!

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Yes, it is definitely my comeback after a few events, -avoidable, but where's the fun in that?-...

A few things happened over the past few months... and... well... I just don't feel like sharing them okay?...

One thing for certain, GRADUATION is coming up pretty soon. 

That's right, I'm leaving school as soon as the SPM's end. Believe me, I feel just great. Just a few more months and I'll be playing all the tennis I want... and not even caring of the SPM results...
Sooner or later, I'll be competing with the best of the best. For every time I face an opponent, I'll always be giving my very best...

WATCH OUT WORLD!!!! This guy is gonna be the BESTest of the best of the best!!!

TEACHER'S DAY and MOTHER'S DAY

It's a drag!!! The drama crew were gathered together again!!! This time it's for a show for Teacher's Day...

And arrrgh!!! The times I have to spend with these pain-in-the-necks are terrible...

It just been like 1 month since this very crew won the Drama Festival, AND NOW THEY'VE FORGOTTEN THEIR LINES!!! Not to mention the fact that they keep on pissing me off every now and then... God knows how much I hated these guys... But I did it for the teachers... LOVE YOU TEACHERS

So let there be practice:

Practice...

practice...

and yet these guys seem to have lost their interest in acting...

man, I wonder why on Earth am I still with these guys...

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MOTHER'S Day came up and I had no idea of what to give for my mum. After a long thought, maybe I can give her my Disciplinary Icon prize. After all, my mum was the one who disciplined me since I was a kid...

I wrapped the prize up and gave it to her...

But I don't really think she appreciated it... She never told used it, not even put it on display.

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The drama went really bad...

The crew thought more of hanging around rather than practice...

The show went bad...

I mean, the drama was supposed to be full of suspense and romance........... 

But all was doomed thanks to the crew...

I felt like I don't ever want to show up in school again as the humiliation was just horrible...

DISCIPLINARY MONTH

DISCIPLINARY MONTH @ SMKAKA..

To the horror of my schoolmates, the Disciplinary Unit on SMKAKA launched this program. By means of disciplinary, all the school rules and regulations are enforced... causing many to lose their beloved items, i.e. cell phones, jeans, their HAIR... etc...

I, as a hostel prefect have been taught to obey the school rules. But still I face problems on keeping myself away from the fact the "rules are meant to be broken". Being patient for a month seems like impossible at first, but I got to get the hang of being like a "robot" after a few curses at the rule book.

Days past, then weeks, every now and then a kid try to prove himself to be a tough guy at school, but failed...

a thought came to me a few times that I should summon the throne of The School's Naughty Brat... It occurred to me because I am one of the most popular kid in school. Being one of the teachers' pet will get me out of almost any trouble I get myself into... But I somehow managed to stop myself from menacing in school. 

And I made a break for it in the last week of the disciplinary month after straining myself just to be an "angel". A trip to the National Park in Pahang did the job well. I returned with a surprise as I was awarded The Disciplinary Icon of SMKAKA. Hahaha. I'm really taken aback at first, but after being "congratulated' by my fellow classmates, I AM DISCIPLINED!!!

STATE-LEVEL TENNIS TOURNAMENT

After a tough battle in the regional tournament, which I lost in the semis, (what? it was a tough fight...)

I got selected for the state levels...

Training was hard...

I did my very best to match the state number 1 player, M. N. Aqram... But I always ended up second best..

Until the tournament started, I had my hopes high to get into at least the semis... 

The first round match put me in the most devastating match ever...

THREE HOURS of non-stop rallies, and I ended up losing to a beginner. Shameful...

the doubles event only got me through to the quarter-finals...

ahh... the tears I wanted to shed...

But looking in the bright side, Dungun won  the overall tournament...

Drama Festival - Malay Legends

A whole month of practice, and now it all comes down to this day... March 31st 2010. The drama crew arrived at the Dungun UITM at around 0730 hours. We were the first crew to get there... So we got our seats and then got up on stage to revise our play.  Not long after, other participating schools arrived.

1. Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Sultan Omar.
2. Sekolah Menengah Sains Dungun.
3. Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Tengku Intan Zaharah.
4. Sekolah Menengah Teknik Dungun.

And soon the show began. Each school sent 1 person to draw a vote to determine which play will go first... So I went as my crew's brave hero and drew out the third order... Back when I was in South Africa, the kids usually said:
Zero The Hero,
First The Worst,
Second The Best,
And Third The  Golden Bird...

Ha! I Got a feeling that things are about to get awesome over here...

So the plays went in this following order:

1. SMKTIZ- The Legend of Hang Tuah.
2. SMTD- The Legend of Merong Mahawangsa.
3. SMK(A)K- The Legend of Mahsuri.
4. SMKSO- The Legend of Puteri Gunung Ledang.
5. SMSD- The Legend of Si Tanggang.

Well, I was really concerned of SMSD, SMKTIZ and SMTD... These three schools have been my school's rivals since like, ever! But never fear! We had a plan...

 We brought along a massive number of supporters. These guys fill up to one quarter of the hall.

But as our turn draw nearer... I started getting flashbacks... All the times at training...

The tree where mahsuri was killed...

The night we stayed up until 0300 hours...
These guys really pissed me off that time...

Our times at the rehearsal...

And it all comes down to this moment...
MAHSURI

The Intro... Mahsuri is the one in front,  that one at the back is Woman 1- no specific name for her.

Deramang and Mahsuri, one of the best scenes I planned as an experienced (just a bit, but more than the others...) performer. This scene got a great applause from the audience... here, Deramang was trying to comfort the lonely in gorgeous Mahsuri.

Woman 1 and Woman 2 (left and centre) talking Mahura (supposed to be my wife in this story...) into accusing Mahsuri of committing adultery with Deramang...

All went well throughout our performance until the part where Mahsuri gets stabbed- NO BLOOD!!! The plastic bag containing "blood" didn't burst!!
but the show must go on...
Just let it be ...

After every competing schools have done their performance, the judges decided...

"Ladies and gentlemen, we now announce the results of the judges..."

WHOA!!! WE WON!!!
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As my crew was announced the champions... The co-director (Fatin Syahirah) and I went up on stage to receive the trophy... Little did I know that there were cameramen recording us for the national news... (I just found out about when my teacher told me that I got in the news...= I WAS ON TV!!)
It was so awesome...
Always... I'll remember this day....

Mahsuri and Mat Deris...

HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!!! FREEDOM!!!! - just for two weeks though..."-_-

And so begins the holidays of June. Ahh... The pleasure of free time... DOOMED!!!!

HOMEWORK INVASION ALERT!!!!

BAHASA- I have to copy some 15 pages of essays!

ENGLISH- Well, just some "paperwork" (handouts)
ARABIC- I have to finish a WHOLE EXERCISE BOOK!!!

HISTORY- Notes on Chapter 7!, well, and some more handouts - a

QURAANICS- More handouts.t least I'm done with them.

MATHS- Handouts.

CHEMISTRY- More handouts.

BIOLOGY- More handouts.

PHYSICS- I have to finish 3 EXPERIMENT REPORTS... THREE!!!

SYARIAH- Let's see, papers, yeah, more handouts.

ADDITIONAL MATHEMATICS- A PROJECT!!!!

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Well, what the heck, I'll just have to suck it up and get them done...

there's so much for me to share...

STAY TUNED FOR THESE UPCOMING TOPICS AT THIS BLOG:

1. THE DRAMA COMPETITION...

2. THE STATE LEVEL TENNIS TOURNAMENT...

3. THE DISCIPINARY MONTH...

4. TEACHER'S DAY...

5. MOTHER'S DAY...

6. EXAMS...

7. A TRIP TO THE NATIONAL PARK...

8. THE PROPHET'S BIRTHDAY

Pranksters' work!!

I saw this advertisement in my friend's facebook profile... I really thought that it was something important, but it turns out to be just a joke.. check it out!!! I put it as... creative? why not?

Just Carry On

LIFE & PEOPLE

People we know, like friends, come and go...

some become so important, and some get forgotten.

Some even betray, and cause a terrible pain deep inside you...

and when that happens,

that's when you know where you stand.

It's what happens then... what you do with wasted relations...

I have always been thinking of revenge... but I choose not to...

you know, when people take you down, just move along... and keep that wi of yours strong. 

I promise you one day it's through.

As long as you are still live, appreciate life; because if you don't, there are only two endings that may come to you: either you TAP, or you SNAP...

so carry on, okay...

I'll be with you, dont you cry...

Just let it go...

Snap. I missed it... turns out that it's not the evil character that stabs Mahsuri... It was one of his henchmen.

So it all over... but hey, I still get to 'kill' her boyfriend...

And I think I'm on the right track to be the best actor too. I can see myself, it won't be long before it turns out a reality, me, right in the center of the stage, as the judges announce..."...and the award for the best actor goes to... Muhammad Bin Hamdan!!!..." All the cheers from my friends, and me in the spotlight... haha! I'd really like that to happen.

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And as for that day... it'll symbolize a new achievement. For me, leaving what's left of my past relationship with my ex locked in the most hidden part of my memory.

It was a nice thing, really, being in love...

But sometimes, love just don't have a happy ending...

Believe me, after being dumped, I know...

So it's not a good idea to go for revenge, because that's what I had in mind...

but just because of that,

I ALMOST TURNED INTO A MONSTER.

A Start of Something New

Boo-yah!

I'm now one of the school actors for a school drama.

THE LEGEND OF MAHSURI

 I hope that I can be the evil character, Mahsuri's father in law. hahaha... (evil laugh)...

Mahsuri is said to be the most beautiful woman in Langkawi. So I suggested my ex to Teacher Noorhayati to be Mahsuri... I might try being Mahsuri's husband, just to get together with her again and spend some time with her again, but, tha evil character gets to 'kill' Mahsuri. so... I leave the rest to your imagination... MUAHAHAHA!!! (another evil laugh...)

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Well, the sports day is starting, I'll be running for my team and I am most certainly hoping to win this year.  After all, when you stop running, you stop the fun.

The school's out for a few days after the sports celebration, so I guess I'll just head on home and start practising to be the evil character, and finally, stab Mahsuri...

MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!! (very evil laugh...)

Sports Day Coming Up!!

Right now everyone is training their butts off to go for the win in our coming sports day celebration. 

I guess it'd probably cause a MASSIVE impact on my studies, knowing that I'd rather focus on sports than on studying. The Blue Team, Khalid, is sending me to compete in quite a lot of races.

4x400m,

400m,

1500m,

800m.

And I have a feeling that that's just some of it... I'm sure it's going to be a BLAST!!!

This is just how I imagine the trophy would be...

Even talking of it makes me all psyched up. But then, I'm going to miss some tennis actions for the week.

Oh well, I guess only losers step aside from sacrificing the things they love the most...

As far as I know it, Khalid members NEVER BACK DOWN!!!

We'll see how the event turns out soon. I have to be ready to be the Team mascot too.

Chinese New Year

 

It's that time of year again when I have holidays on the days of celebration that even I'm not sure of which day it is held on. Chinese New Year...

But knowing that I am not a chinese, I'll just share the fun of the holidays by blogging... hehehe...\

So as my journey goes on this year, I met a new friend, Alexander J. Kenyon. An ETA from America, a really nice guy. I haven't any photos of him right now, but who cares...

And now I'm the vice-captain of the hostel prefect's body, t'was qutie surprising to be selected, really... I'm also selected to be the head of the school mosque, the Taekwondo Club President, the Arts and Photography Club President, Tennis Club President, and class monitor. Duhh.

I'm playing tennis harder than ever now... I just have to get to the top a lot sooner than other players now... And I play a lot of drive shots now. I really need to improve my offensive gameplay.

The first exam for the year has passed. Tricky questions were everywhere. I don't really care actually, but I'm a dead man if my parents find out that I get low grades... So anyway, I just let myself enjoy my time here; while I can...

SENIOR YEAR

SMKAKA GLORIOUS 2010 : MY SENIOR YEAR
This is it, my final year of senior high school. The BIG THING about this year is that this is the year everyone in school look forward to. The leaders, I am one of them, are said to be the best after 5 years of downturn.
Well, personally I am not much of a leader myself, but my teachers = {Mr Mat Lazim, Mrs Rokiah, Miss Noorhayati, etc..} are all looking up to my vision of succession... It's quite a drag... my friends like Siti Nur Fatin Athirah, Tengku Fatimah Azzahra, Nurul Islah, and Hamizah are always looking for an opportunity to talk me in to being a Naqib. It is touching.. I'm honestly not into all this leadership stuff anymore... But for my friends' sake, I'll do my best...

I dreamed a dream last night, I won a marathon. a very real-like dream. tiring.. but a good one. It made me think of going into sports... because I had a similar dream a few days earlier.  After all, I am a tennis player. All I need is to pursue on my beginner's career. Well, that's a thought...

About SPM, damn, I don't know, I guess I should give it a go. Somehow it doesn't seem like I care about it any more than I used to... scary.. well, I can make myself to score an A+ in English, Physics, and Maths... But I'll need to stay tormented if I'm ever going to score even an A- in Add Maths, Biology, Chemistry, and History...

But it's okay, I guess... I need a New Year Resolution, and I've come up with one..

1. ...
2. ...
3. ...

ooh, I think that's good enough. I can't plan my year, so I'll leave it in up to my future self to decide what to do that time.

My favoutire singer?? Connie Talbot...

Aged six, and she has already achieved the Britain's Got Talent's Runner-up award.

That's really something... she sings beautifully.

SAYONARA 2009!!

GOODBYE 2009..

The fact that 2009 has come to an end is clear...

The good times rush by... and the bad ones... uuh... it seems like I've had a great year. Really, my friends, my family and my days throughout this year have all been awesome, especially the guys I met at Johore.. I haven't get time to thank you all properly.. Thank you.

all the hardships that we've been through, all those loved ones gone forever, all the tears dropped, tears of joy, tears of sorrow, and all the moments that we'll all cherish... shine a light for every love that has been with us so strong.

Teacher Zatil Syarafina...
Goodbye, I do hope that you'll lead yourself to a happy life. I'm always behind you, supporting. Have a wonderful future in Melaka, and get married a.s.a.p... I'll get married with my dear Efa soon enough... Remember the times when you were in KAKA, as a teacher, and way back beyond.. If anything happens to you, let me know... I'll be at my best to help you out..

And to all my friends of RIMUP, let us all do our best in making more friends.. Spreading love all over the country. Our beloved Malaysia.

 

One day, we will look back to all of our efforts this year and say, "I wish that I've done more...".

We'll all be moving forward.. cherishing every moment we've had together.

As for Siti Sarah,

I would never have been the person I am without you... as for the times we've had together, thank you very much.. You know, all this time, you're amongst the five girls that I approved for. I you need any assistance, just let me know.. Just to show you my appreciation towards all we've been through. But time has chosen me to fall in love with the first girl that have ever caught me off guard, Nurul Afifah. And for now, I'm really happy.

My comrade, Syed Muhammad Khairi, you're the one that brought me closer to everyone in our dormitri. Thanks. I hope you continue on your pursue as a photographer.

Muhammad Nazir, it been good knowing you...

Wan Muhammad Anwar Taufeek, I'm actually okay having you around.. I just don't really know how to conjure a conversation.

I'm sorry..

I wish to start a new year with all the good stuff coming to us all.
Well, I only specialize in tennis, English and physics, so..
Everyone, once again...
Yoroshiku onegaishimasu..
I'll be as wild as ever next year...
Let's all do our best for The Greater Good.

PMR Payday...

MAJLIS PENYERAHAN PINGAT EMAS & HADIAH KECEMERLANGAN PELAJAR KALI KE-30

December 24th, 2009. At around 6 a.m. that morning I woke up hurriedly to get ready for this ceremony...

This is it. The day where my hardworks in 2008 pays off. And by that I mean PAID. Hah! I wore my best outfits to meet the Chief Minister of Terengganu.

There were two others of my friends who showed up for the event. Muniera, my dear friend, almost like a sister to me. I call her Kak Moon. The other one is Muhammad Aiman Fajri, well, I got along with him better just by the end of 2009's school sessions.

After quite a while of listening to the Chief Minister's speech, it's time!!

Of course, there's a long queue ahead.
Waiting... and more waiting...

until it's my turn.. the excitement was overdoing me...

I felt it. The pride of my parents, engraved into my heart... forever...

As for myself, this is just the beginning of a new era...

BEST CLASS OF 2009!

THE FIVE BOYS OF MB5

not in the picture: Muhammad Shahrir

2009 is coming to an end, I've only got one photo of the boys of my class...

introducing the MB5's 5.

Muhammad Shahrir Ashraf: *not in the picture*

Lively, spirited, humble, smart. My best companion in class.

If you're going to judge him by his looks, you're really going to regret it. Though he is the shortest, I'd reckon that he is the strongest in my class. One of the school's librarian. Surely, he is a great friend.

Syed Muhammad Khairi: Photographer, smart, neat, cheerful. He's got a funny sense of humor though. The lead computer graphics' specialist in school, a prefect, the main candidate for Head Boy in 2010. Possibly the most popular boy in the Upper Secondary half of SMKAKA.

Wan Muhammad Anwar Taufeek: Syed's best friend, desk partner. Silent, cool, cold. A veteran member of the SMKAKA Student's Council. A mysterious character in the eyes of the girls of 4MB5.

Muhammad Nazir: Possibly the most popular boy in the Boy's Hostel. The Vice-captain of the Hostel Prefect's Organization. Dedicated, stylish, mature, cool.

Muhammad: Class Monitor, the spirited type. Ace scorer in English and Physics. A tennis player, artist and novice photographer.

THE NATIONAL UNITY ASSEMBLY & INTERGRATION FOR STUDENT LEADERS AND INTERNATIONAL INVITATIONS 2009 (RIMUP) *EPILOG*

The trip home was a long one.. I daydreamed about my days with Group I all the way to Terengganu.

TINGGI-TINGGI GUNUNG KINABALU,

TINGGI LAGI SAYANG SAMA KAMU,

BIRU-BIRU HUJUNG KINABALU,

TENGOK DARI JAUH,

HATI SAYA RINDU...

KINABALU DEKAT DI KUNDASANG,

BANYAK SAYUR BOLEH PILIH-PILIH,

APA GUNA PERGI LUAR NEGERI,

NAIK KINABALU,

HATI SAYA RINDU...

SUMANDAK-SUMANDAK PUN TURUT MENUNGGU,

MENARI-NARI LANGGANG SUMAZAU,

SEKALI MELIHAT MELEPAK KULITNYA,

SAYANG... JATUH CINTA...

SAYANG-SAYANG SAYANG KINABALU,

KAAMATAN PESTA BULAN LIMA,

MARI SAYANG KITA PERGI TAMU,

JALAN TAMPARULI, HATI SAYA RINDU...

The song that Recca taught me kept on replaying in my mind...

the Sumazau dance, everything...

I kept in touch with my friends... the next week was the school holidays... I texted Som Cai, Recca, Efa and the others... five days later, August 24th, I texted Efa as usual.

"What are you doing?" she asked.

"Just spending time with the one I love.." I replied.

"Who do you love?"

"you..."

There was a long pause...

"I LOVE YOU TOO..." she replied.

THE NATIONAL UNITY ASSEMBLY & INTERGRATION FOR STUDENT LEADERS AND INTERNATIONAL INVITATIONS 2009 (RIMUP) *FINAL DAY*

EVERYONE'S LEAVING

I felt miserable that morning. My friends, our time together just passed through my very eyes.. all I did was pray that time keeps us together, forever. I'm not able to write much for this day had our last meal together, I didn't pay much attention at what was going on around me. All I can remember is sitting next to Recca, I wanted more time to talk to her, more time to be with everyone.

And for once, I realised that I am getting fond of being a Malaysian. Living together harmoniously as one.

AS FOR NOW...

Goodbye may seem forever,

farewell is like the end.

But in my heart are memories,

and that's where we live on...

Everyone moved on to each contingents' bus to head back to our states.

"Cheer up, Efa," I said to Nurul Afifah, a groupmate of mine. "Everyone's crying but I don't think that it like there's no tomorrow.."

WHAM!!! Efa gave me a great punch right in the stomach.. 

Just as I was leaving, I saw it... The smile I've been waiting for from Efa since the very first day...

Sincerely waving goodbye, I waved back. The moment was...beautiful... picture perfect and I'm the only one to see it...